Update

Okay, so I went to the gym yesterday and I did the Eliptical for 40 minutes, which is good because i had been doing it for 30 minutes and I promised myself I was going to do it for 40 and I did!. Tonight I am either going to a class or the Eliptical again but I'm not sure yet. Hopefully the class because I haven't gone to one in quite some time. I really do like working out. I feel so much better after I do it and I feel like i accomplished something. It is a good way to release stress as well. I'm really excited because I don't have any homework for tomorrow so Iam looking forward to relaxing and just watching TV (and going to the gym of course.) I get to make my schedule tonight at midnight and I really hope I get the classes I want/need. I am leaing towards business so I am taking college algebra, some econ class, a mosaic and 2 gen eds which I have yet to choose. I think I am just going to see what fits my schedule.

Can't Sleep Again

So I just wrote this reallllly long rant blog about a bunch of stuff, and when I pressed the backspace key, it left the page and I lost it. Needless to say I'm pissed. First I was talking about how I went to the gym and did 30 minutes on the Eliptical. I also talked about my lack of sleep. It is 3:48AM and I am writing a blog that no one reads. This is cool. I have a pretty busy day tomorrow. I have to shower, go to my 10AM class, grab lunch with my roommate K, go to the TECH center to do work (this is a maybe), come back home, go to my 2PM class, go to advising so I will be able to register for classes, go to my 4PM class, then grab dinner. I will probably end up getting dinner by myself because everytime I ask my suitmates to go, they are like, 10 minutes late. Even though I specifically asked them to leave early so I didn't have to stand around alone looking like an asshole. Then I get mad and they wonder why? I think I would just rather get something by myself. I did kind of alot of stuff today. I woke up and went to the TECH center to get sources because I had a conference with my english prof. He was actually impressed with my research so that was good. Then I ran to the sac to get some lunch (I had a bacon egg and cheese on a plain bagel with ketchup and a Sierra Mist), came home, took a 4 hour nap, woke up, went to the sac with H to get dinner (I had a buffalo wrap with kettle chips and a diet Pepsi), went to the gym where I did the Eliptical for 30 minutes, came home, cleaned my room, cleaned the shower, and I was going to clean the other bathroom but it was just so fucking disgusting because 2 of my suitmates has their periods and neither of them thought it would be a good idea to take out the garbage so it is overflowing with used pads and its gross. I don't even have my period right now and K was gone all weekend so I should not have to pick it up, nor should I have to ask someone to do it. We are adults here. Taking out the trash shouldn't be an issue. So I wrote a note explaining the situation and A wrote one back saying she was gonna take it out. When? When the floor was no longer visible? Its gross and I seriously shouldn't have had to tell anyone to do it. I feel like a mother.

Quick

Okay so I dont want to write for too long because it is 3:40AM and I have a conference with my English Professor tomorrow around 12:30. But I went to the gym today and I did 30 minutes on the Eliptical.. Not great but it is a start. Im pretty sure im going to Sweat and Sculpt tomorrow so hopefully I will be able to stay on track.

Insomnia

Okay, so why cant I fall asleep? I really wish I knew because then maybe I can fix whatever it is and just sleep already. I have a 10AM class tomorrow morning which means I will have to get up around 9AM and it is already 4:33AM and I seriously am not even tired. I'm watching late night MTV which reminds me of when I couldn't sleep back home because this is what I used to watch. Right now the music video for Lady Gaga's song Papparazzi is on. It's an okay song I guess. I wonder why I can't sleep. Maybe it's stress, although there isn't really anything specific that is stressing me out right now. I mean, college in general is a pretty stressful situation, but its not like I have anything due tomorrow. I have my law class where we do nothing, my politics of identity class where I dont really do anything except take notes and go on FarmVille, and sexuality, where hopefully we are getting our tests back because I think I actually did good on it. Its not that im doing bad in school, It's just that im only doing average and I really wanna do well. Hopefully next semester will be better because I will be more used to college. Who knows though. I ate way too much today. For lunch I had a buffalo wrap, for dinner I had a burger with cheese fries, and then I went to fourth meal and got chicken fingers and ice cream. I really need to start eating healthier food. It's not even that I eat that much, but the stuff that I eat is isgusting. If only I actually liked veggies. Blaaaaah. Waking up tomorrow is going to be awful (if even go to sleep.) I know 10AM isn't really even that early for class, but I just cant seem to et used to waking up early. I really wish I could fall asleep early. No one is even on Facebook right now. Like, I need to learn how to go to bed earlier or something because this whole not sleeping thing is not going to work out well inthe long run. I will just have to take like, night classes next semester because I dont think I can do morning classes. I wish I had some Ambien CR or something that would just put me to sleep. So it is now 4:45AM and I am still not tired. Even if I did fall asleep by 5AM (which is pretty much impossible because it takes me at least 20 minutes to fall asleep) I would still only get 4 and a hald hours of sleep at the most. I sometimes wonder if anybody actually reads this blog. I dont know why they would but I think it would be cool. If you do, let me know=) Why is the music video for "Fergalicious" on right now? Its 2009 if im not mistaken. Oh well. I guess thats whats on when you stay up until 5AM. I think I am running out of things to write. But I'm still not tired so I guess I will find something to talk about. This whole blog thing is actually quite relaxing. I can get my feelings out into the open without people I know reading it, because they would probably just make fun of me. It helps get things off my chest that I dont really wanna talk about to my friends. I think Fergie is white trash. I dont know why, but she just kind of seems dirty or something, like she can never actuallly be clean. Idk, its weird. And gross. Im glad I dont get really bad acne. Not that I hate people who do, but its just really gross and Im glad I dont have to deal with it. Like, that must really suck. But I would rather have acne than be fat. But I guess I can work on the whole fat thing. I just need to bring myself to the gym more. I really want to be skinny by the time spring semester rolls around. Then maybe I can get a boyfried. I have really been wanting one lately. Idk what it is but seeing people together kind of makes me depressed. Well, this was a really long and pointless post, so I suppose I will go now seeing as it is 5 to 5. =)

Running

So I think i want to start running. One, to get in shape. Two, to be skinnier. An three, as a way to release stress. I honestly think once I amin shape enough that running is possible I will really like it. I just really need to start. Its kind of hard though because none ofmy roommates are really into fitness and definately not into running. It fall so I will probably start in the gym then hopefully by the time that spring rolls around I will be able to run outside. Who knows maybe I willl meet people. Hopefully I can start running and I am going t try to write about it in this blog so I can track my progress. I don't think I will be able to start today but hopefully sometime this week. The sooner the better really. I also want new sneakers so maybe once I get them I will be more motviated.

Okay so my roommates boyfriend is here and I just want to say that I hate him. I hate him, I hate him, I hate him. Seriously they are so fucking annoying. First of all he thinks he can control the tv like it is his just because the Yankees are playing. You don't own the TV. Like, all these 2 have been doing is laying in that stupid bed either arguing or being fucking annoying. I'm pissed. Like, can you argue about more stupid things? Like, they fight about nothing. I can't even study for my test tomorrow because they are sitting here in the dark watching The OC at 2:18 PM. Like, GET THE FUCK OUT OF BED. Seriously. And he was supposed to leave on Sunday, but now he's not even leaving till Monday and Katy didn't even tell me? Like, you have roommates. You can't just do anything you want without asking anyone.

Blahh

So I guess I'm really getting into this whole blog thing because I have written 3 posts in the past day (this is my fourth.) Whats weird is I really don't like to write. Enough about that though. I really wish my mom didn't miss me so much. Like, I do miss her. I just don't want to go home yet. I like it here at school and this is where my friends are. She is probably the only one at home who misses me. This english paper really has me buggin. Like, I really didn't think it was that bad. I know it's not the finally draft. I think im more embarrassed than I am dissappointed in myself. I'm just not good at writing papers. They suck.

English Conference

Okay so my english paper sucked. Big suprise there. In the words of my professor,it wasnot deep enough, it was a dissappointing effort, and it seemed to be done last minute. Which is tre seeing as I wrote it the night before while I was half asleep. Fortunately I have a chance to rewrite it before the final draft is due. Iknow I always say I'm not going to wait until last minute but I'm seriously this time. I really didn't mean to put 3 spaces after each period. I don't know why that happened. Oh well. It will get better and hopefully my second paper is a little better than the first. Oh well. I'm so fucking tired.

So soon?

Okay so I know my title is stupid but I seriously posted m first post about 3 minutes ago. An I still have no motivation to write my paper or find sources or do a works cited page. Honestly I don't really even want to sleep either. Sure, I'm tired, but I think sleep is such a boring thing that should be reserved for boring times. I don't understand why more people don't stay up late. The letters on my keyboard are sticking and it is really pissing me off because every two words I type, I look back and realize there are letters missing and what I put so much time and effort into typing is not even close to being comprehensible. But it's fine. I really wish I drank more. I just have such a good time. But I also wish I was skinny becuase honestly, I hate being the fat one in my group of friends. Sure my friends don't really see me as fat anymore but people I just meet are only seeing me as the fat girl with skinny friends. Sure, I'm not morbidly obese, but when I stand next to a 5'2 95 pound friend, it sure looks that way. It's not like I don't try to lose weight. I really think I am starting to. But probably not. I really wish I could write like Chuck Klosterman.

Stupid

Okay so basically right now I am sitting in the dark while my rooommate is sleeping, creeping on a kid who I seriously don't even know, and thinking of anything I can do to keep me from writng my english paper that is du in approximately 11 hours and 14 minutes. This seems like a long time to write a paper, however, I really hate writing papers, and I also would like to sleep sometime between now and when I have to hand in my paper. I only have a ten minute conference with my english teacher tomorrow but I know that will be enough time for him to tell me how bad my first papers was and how bad my second paper is going to be. Man, I really hate writing. Although I supposed blogging isn't too bad. But that is probably because no one is making me do it. Actually, it is something I probably shouldn't be doing. In reality, there are so many things that I should be doing right now, yet I'm sitting here, typing away on a blog that probably no one will read and if theydo read it, they will find it at the most mundanely interesting. But probably not. I really wish I didn't procrastinate so much. Like, I had atleast a week to do this paper. Actually, probably more than a week, but I probably was not paying attention when this was announced, seeing as I rarely pay attention in english anyway. I really do like college. Sure the work sucks but they people and parties are cool. I mean, sure I don't really go out as much as I would like to, but I blame that on my roommates for never being motivated to go out. We could go out everynight if we wanted to, but unforrtunately I find myself going out about once every two weeks. I mean, I don't want to be an alcoholic, but drinking is fun. Whatever, maybe I'll do this next time I have something important to do thatI don't want to do. Even though no one will read this.