Okay so I am in politics of Identity right now and I am very bored. Ithink I am going to the gym tonight but we will see. I asked Holly if she wanted to go but she has yet to reply. But I hate going alone. All I had today was a cinnamon bagel with cream cheese and a large diet coke. I'm kinda hungry but not really. If I do go to the gym tonight it is probably just going to the be the Eliptical or the treadmill. I'm not really feeling a class tonight. I will save that for Tuesday. Pat came here to suprise Katy on Saturday instead of staying at his house and having a party while his parents went away. It was nice but I think it was rude. He completely disregarded the fact that it is not just katys place and that she lives with three other people. I know its not that big of a deal but it just annoys me that he thinks he can come here whenever he feels like it without asking Katy or any of us. This class is kind of interesting but I really just dont care about identity politics. I really want to start running and I know I always say it but I DO want to. So why don't I? I have no fucking idea. This is going to be a boring week and I already can't wait for the weekend, and it's onlt Monday =( I'm trying to think about what I want for dinner tonight but really everything here just sickens me anymore. I can't eat another cheeseburger from J and H. I really think Alissa is letting herself go. She puts cheese on her fries all the time. Yeah it tastes good but it is just so disgusting and im sure its horrible for you. She sits in her bed on her laptop all day on youtube and facebook. Any time I ask her to go to the gym she acts like its the worst thing ever. Like, I know im not skinny but atleast im putting forth some sort of effort. She is getting bigger too. I can see her stomach getting bigger. And its not that shes even fat, but like, whaddup freshman fifteen! I have lost weight since I've been here which I am proud of and hopefully I will be skinny by next semester.

Blah

Once again here I am procrastinating on yet another english paper. I am writing about Oprah and I am currently at a loss for words. This weekend was amazing. Probably one of the best weekends of my life. It was Halloween and I went to a party on Friday and then another party on Saturday. The first party was at this kid named Ramons house on 17th and Oxford. I went to a couple parties there before an always had fun. I didn't reallly think about dressing up because it wasn't actually Halloween yet but when we met up with the other people we were going with, they were all in full costume. Needless to say I felt like an asshole. But whatever, after an hour no one knew what anyone was wearing anyway. While we were there, we saw TJ Capobianco which was probably one of the most random fucking things that has ever happened to me. He was wasted, but I was too so everything way fine. We saw him while we were waiting in line for the bathroom and I told him to sing and all of the sudden he sings the loudest note ever in the smallest most echo-y hallway ever. Everyone was pissed but I thought it was hilar. The beer ran out kind of early so we didn't stay ridiculously long, as we usually do. We walked home (making fools of ourselves im sure) and came back to the dorm. Say Yes to the Dress ( one of mine and Katys faorite shows) was on so we watched that while we were drunk then we just fell asleep. We slept in ridiculously late then woke up and were all starving and thirsty so we went to J and H for lunch. When we got there we sat and talked and laughed about the night before (as we usually do.) After that, we came back to the dorm and me and Alissa went to South Street because we needed Halloween costumes. I ended up just wearing a ight blue dress and red shoes that I already had, and I bought some stockings and a basket with a stuffedpuppy in it and went as Dorothy. Katy was an angel and Alissa was a pirate. Pat was at Drexel for the weekend so he came in for Halloween to go to a party, but he didn't dress up. I felt stupid as I was getting ready but once I got out I really didn't care at all. We met up with Ali Zimmerman and Tara McNulty and went to Bobs house (where we had gone a few times before.) We got our cups and went downstairs and the first person I see is Ann Rejrat from Nay Aug. Totally random right? Then, as I was waiting at the Keg, I saw Mike Zangardi and talked to him for a little. Then later I ran into Serena Kearny who I went to elementaray school with and havent seen since about 5th grade. Then I was standing with my friends and I felt a tap on my shoulder and I turned around and saw Billy Schultz so I gave him the biggest hug ever. Then we talked for a minute and he left because he was playing beer pong and it was his turn. Then 2 minutes later I felt another tap on my shoulder and it was Billy again, so we hugged again ( we were both quite drunk at this point). Then we were stil hugging and he looked at Katy and Alissa and was like "I know you guys, but Sarah is my best friend" Then we talked some more and then Empire State of Mind came on so me and all of my friends were freaking out and singing. The rest of the night was ridiculous and I'm going to write more but I have a paper to write and only 10 hours to do it!

Update

Okay, so I went to the gym yesterday and I did the Eliptical for 40 minutes, which is good because i had been doing it for 30 minutes and I promised myself I was going to do it for 40 and I did!. Tonight I am either going to a class or the Eliptical again but I'm not sure yet. Hopefully the class because I haven't gone to one in quite some time. I really do like working out. I feel so much better after I do it and I feel like i accomplished something. It is a good way to release stress as well. I'm really excited because I don't have any homework for tomorrow so Iam looking forward to relaxing and just watching TV (and going to the gym of course.) I get to make my schedule tonight at midnight and I really hope I get the classes I want/need. I am leaing towards business so I am taking college algebra, some econ class, a mosaic and 2 gen eds which I have yet to choose. I think I am just going to see what fits my schedule.

Can't Sleep Again

So I just wrote this reallllly long rant blog about a bunch of stuff, and when I pressed the backspace key, it left the page and I lost it. Needless to say I'm pissed. First I was talking about how I went to the gym and did 30 minutes on the Eliptical. I also talked about my lack of sleep. It is 3:48AM and I am writing a blog that no one reads. This is cool. I have a pretty busy day tomorrow. I have to shower, go to my 10AM class, grab lunch with my roommate K, go to the TECH center to do work (this is a maybe), come back home, go to my 2PM class, go to advising so I will be able to register for classes, go to my 4PM class, then grab dinner. I will probably end up getting dinner by myself because everytime I ask my suitmates to go, they are like, 10 minutes late. Even though I specifically asked them to leave early so I didn't have to stand around alone looking like an asshole. Then I get mad and they wonder why? I think I would just rather get something by myself. I did kind of alot of stuff today. I woke up and went to the TECH center to get sources because I had a conference with my english prof. He was actually impressed with my research so that was good. Then I ran to the sac to get some lunch (I had a bacon egg and cheese on a plain bagel with ketchup and a Sierra Mist), came home, took a 4 hour nap, woke up, went to the sac with H to get dinner (I had a buffalo wrap with kettle chips and a diet Pepsi), went to the gym where I did the Eliptical for 30 minutes, came home, cleaned my room, cleaned the shower, and I was going to clean the other bathroom but it was just so fucking disgusting because 2 of my suitmates has their periods and neither of them thought it would be a good idea to take out the garbage so it is overflowing with used pads and its gross. I don't even have my period right now and K was gone all weekend so I should not have to pick it up, nor should I have to ask someone to do it. We are adults here. Taking out the trash shouldn't be an issue. So I wrote a note explaining the situation and A wrote one back saying she was gonna take it out. When? When the floor was no longer visible? Its gross and I seriously shouldn't have had to tell anyone to do it. I feel like a mother.

Quick

Okay so I dont want to write for too long because it is 3:40AM and I have a conference with my English Professor tomorrow around 12:30. But I went to the gym today and I did 30 minutes on the Eliptical.. Not great but it is a start. Im pretty sure im going to Sweat and Sculpt tomorrow so hopefully I will be able to stay on track.

Insomnia

Okay, so why cant I fall asleep? I really wish I knew because then maybe I can fix whatever it is and just sleep already. I have a 10AM class tomorrow morning which means I will have to get up around 9AM and it is already 4:33AM and I seriously am not even tired. I'm watching late night MTV which reminds me of when I couldn't sleep back home because this is what I used to watch. Right now the music video for Lady Gaga's song Papparazzi is on. It's an okay song I guess. I wonder why I can't sleep. Maybe it's stress, although there isn't really anything specific that is stressing me out right now. I mean, college in general is a pretty stressful situation, but its not like I have anything due tomorrow. I have my law class where we do nothing, my politics of identity class where I dont really do anything except take notes and go on FarmVille, and sexuality, where hopefully we are getting our tests back because I think I actually did good on it. Its not that im doing bad in school, It's just that im only doing average and I really wanna do well. Hopefully next semester will be better because I will be more used to college. Who knows though. I ate way too much today. For lunch I had a buffalo wrap, for dinner I had a burger with cheese fries, and then I went to fourth meal and got chicken fingers and ice cream. I really need to start eating healthier food. It's not even that I eat that much, but the stuff that I eat is isgusting. If only I actually liked veggies. Blaaaaah. Waking up tomorrow is going to be awful (if even go to sleep.) I know 10AM isn't really even that early for class, but I just cant seem to et used to waking up early. I really wish I could fall asleep early. No one is even on Facebook right now. Like, I need to learn how to go to bed earlier or something because this whole not sleeping thing is not going to work out well inthe long run. I will just have to take like, night classes next semester because I dont think I can do morning classes. I wish I had some Ambien CR or something that would just put me to sleep. So it is now 4:45AM and I am still not tired. Even if I did fall asleep by 5AM (which is pretty much impossible because it takes me at least 20 minutes to fall asleep) I would still only get 4 and a hald hours of sleep at the most. I sometimes wonder if anybody actually reads this blog. I dont know why they would but I think it would be cool. If you do, let me know=) Why is the music video for "Fergalicious" on right now? Its 2009 if im not mistaken. Oh well. I guess thats whats on when you stay up until 5AM. I think I am running out of things to write. But I'm still not tired so I guess I will find something to talk about. This whole blog thing is actually quite relaxing. I can get my feelings out into the open without people I know reading it, because they would probably just make fun of me. It helps get things off my chest that I dont really wanna talk about to my friends. I think Fergie is white trash. I dont know why, but she just kind of seems dirty or something, like she can never actuallly be clean. Idk, its weird. And gross. Im glad I dont get really bad acne. Not that I hate people who do, but its just really gross and Im glad I dont have to deal with it. Like, that must really suck. But I would rather have acne than be fat. But I guess I can work on the whole fat thing. I just need to bring myself to the gym more. I really want to be skinny by the time spring semester rolls around. Then maybe I can get a boyfried. I have really been wanting one lately. Idk what it is but seeing people together kind of makes me depressed. Well, this was a really long and pointless post, so I suppose I will go now seeing as it is 5 to 5. =)

Running

So I think i want to start running. One, to get in shape. Two, to be skinnier. An three, as a way to release stress. I honestly think once I amin shape enough that running is possible I will really like it. I just really need to start. Its kind of hard though because none ofmy roommates are really into fitness and definately not into running. It fall so I will probably start in the gym then hopefully by the time that spring rolls around I will be able to run outside. Who knows maybe I willl meet people. Hopefully I can start running and I am going t try to write about it in this blog so I can track my progress. I don't think I will be able to start today but hopefully sometime this week. The sooner the better really. I also want new sneakers so maybe once I get them I will be more motviated.